émotion en ce moment

"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all 
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and 
We can't go back
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it 
I just want to make you proud 
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all 
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and 
We can't go back
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all 
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and 
We can't go back
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all 
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and 
We can't go back
I'm sorry 
I can't be perfect

detruit dans me

today, seems to be a depressing day for me. those who only takes AS maths are going to finish their exams. envy them. mine, 2 WEEKS to go. sob sob. well, today reading econs econs econs n econs. sounds depressing with econs right? nvr mind cz i find econs now more interesting than before. well done father! you have choose the right course for me(p.s. actually i still prefer psychology!) whatever, nothing much i can do about it. something been bothering me these few weeks. something wrong with me i guess (weirdo) arghh....since everyone is happy around me it's fine. good luck for minasan in their exam...LOL(to destress, keke)!!!

confusion dans moi

i began to realise that i need to try to open my heart. not only for studies but also in life itself. i been neglecting the whole idea of warmness of my heart to other people. i been keeping everything to myself bcz i can't afford people to look through me. maybe it's bcz i can't bear to get hurt again. so now, should i or should i not open my heart to others? should i just be just like me now? actually, i noe no one could actually give me d right answer except for myself. trying to avoid it as i could. it's nice to blog when there's no one who noes about you in real life, cz you jz can pour everything from your heart. anyway, i'm happy now cz bro return to my family. we all miss him vry much! 

p.s. welcome back to my life bro!